i wish i was as invisible as you make me feel

I can't get out of bed. I'm so comfy.
Yesterday I was really productive. I woke up at like 6 30. I ran, went tanning, picked up my new glasses, got a haircut, and worked. That's probably more that I've done in weeks lol.
Today at work I'm working in the dairy department. For those of you not familiar...I have to be in a cooler my whole shift stocking stuff from behind. I hope you can see how much that sucks. But...there are some advantages. I don't have to deal with as many customers and I get to work at my own rate by myself.
Yesterday I dropped my phone in a puddle getting out of my car. Its working but acting a little weird.
I was supposed to go get the rest of my stuff from Leja today but I just don't feel up to it. I have to be in a certain place for that mentally and I'm not there today.
She acts so mean...puts her status on myspace to show me she's so happy with her new girlfriend...then she'll text me and say she misses me, or wishes I was there.
Wtf??
I told her to stop saying things like that to me. I didn't tell her...but its hurtful. Its easier to see her status all in love and to hate her. I don't want to hear that when at the same time her status says "has the best gf ever" or "had the best now I have better" she puts things like that to hurt me and it makes me hate her. Which is easy to do.
Aaaanyways...I talked to Patrick yesterday. He may be moving to Florida. And I'll be visiting him shortly after that! I need to get away. I just need a beach. I just want to lay on the beach for a week and not touch my phone, or look at myspace, or Facebook, or texts, or worry about work, and dumb shit.

"A good relationship is like fireworks: loud, explosive, and liable to maim you if you hold on too long."

Getting better every day. :)

She just keeps making it easier for me to move on.

Raquel came to visit me on Saturday! We went out to lunch and she came back to my moms and we played rockband and guitar hero. I haven't seen her in so long. I mean, besides just in passing. It was a good day :)

I finally got my income tax. Not that I get to keep any of it...but at least some bills are paid.
That's relieving.

I'm sitting on amy's couch watching lifetime movie network. Sister act is on!!

Anyways....things are looking up, and so am I.

i've been wanting to start using this again...but every time i get on i get frustrated because my friends page wont show up. i can see it from my phone, but it takes forever.
why can't i see it??
i can see my friends' friends pages

oook...only have 10 minutes before i start work...

this weekend was pretty fun. on friday i got home from work and leja and leslie were drunk at my house
needless to say...i had some catching up to do.
so i drank some pumpkin beer, broke a glass, started getting sick, played on the floor...then we all went biking drunk around bridgeport.
i'll have to post pics when i get home...it was a hoot

today i had to be up at like 5 30 for a meeting at work. i got voted on today. someone else didnt get voted on the team and i'm really sad for him. no one has really seen that happen before. people take it way too seriously. its only a job. hes a good worker...people just dont like him because he threatens them.
anyways...i'm just happy that i made it on. now i get insurance :D

last night i took leja to dinner at red lobster. mmmm endless shrimp. i cant believe leja turned me on to shrimp. i dont like it as much as she does...but its pretty damn yummmy

i'm super sleepy. i went home before work to sleep and now i think i got way too much sleep.
oook..have to punch in

got back from camping yesterday...it was good and bad

for the first 36 hours, it did nothing but rain. we slept in the car on sunday night. the whole tent was like a waterbed so we all slept in the car, along with all of our things. monday it rained most of the day, but we actually slept in the tent. tuesday we got to actually go to a little waterpark and have some fun at the campfire.
then on wed...we finally got a break from the rain and went to indiana beach. i used to go camping there like every other weekend with my dad my whole childhood but havent been in like 15 years. it was fun to see the things that i remember from when i was little. i went on a rollercoaster with lorenzo and ended up passing out. i was perfectly fine, remember going halfway down the first drop, then i woke up pulling into the station with blood all over my face. i walked down to leja and caytlin then realized my arm was all bruised already and my face hurt really bad. i cut my nose all the way through and it feels like someone beat the shit out of the whole right side of my body. i think i scared lorenzo more than the ride did. he said i looked like the grudge. my eyes were all rolled back and my body was limp flying all over. it really sucked. i got my ass beat up.
i went to the dr today and he did more tests. he upped my prescripton and i have to wear a heart monitor for a month, then most likely have the surgery after that.
i'm about over this shit. my heart gives me more problems than anything. i'm 22...that shouldnt be the case.

i'm still off work til like tues so i have a lot of relaxing to do in the next few days :) my black eye and i are going to be bed whores.

ooooook...i'm sleepy

soooo, life is good.

my new job pretty much rocks. i love it. everyone is so damn happy and friendly and helpful! and the whole "no-uniform-close-to-home-better-paying-better-hours-discount-thing doesnt help either :)

6 more days til beyonce!! i dont know if i ever posted about it, but leja her boss, and i are going to see beyonce and robin thicke on sat. we have awesome floor seats!

then sunday...we leave for camping!! we'll be gone til...thursday. i cannot wait. no work, no worries. i'm going to be chillin out tanning the whole time! and makin s'mores!

i'm waiting for a load of laundry to dry, then i'm hittin in the hay. i think i'm coming up with a cold. i'm really stuffy all the sudden today. i need some medicine fast! i cant be sick this weekend

yesterday i knew i was going to get "a talking to" at work. theresa brought me upstairs with anthony. i know that anthony thinks shes a joke. pretty much...she only needed him there for moral support. she just sat there looking at him, waiting for him to start yelling at me or something, but he didnt. so she just looked like a scared little fool. i wanted to just stand up and tell her off. her dumb ass cant even say anything to me because she knows all of the shit i can come up with too, especially when anthony is sitting there

i went into whole foods to sign a paper, and i start next week. hopefully my scheduling works out.

anyways...time for some pizza and myspace before work!

ps - i totally ignored AIM for like a year...and went on today. i have no friends anymore :(

maybe i didnt know what i was doing, or maybe i'm just a complete idiot, but when i signed up for insurance through jewel...i signed up for HMO instead of PPO. this meaning...i cant see the cardiologist that i've been seeing. he diagnosed my sister, my mom and i. he knew everything about our condition, what meds i can and cannot take, just...everything. now, i have to see a new cardiologist. pretty much just to get my prescription filled. so yesterday i got some tests done. have to go back next tuesday for tests. then have to go back a week after that. what a damn hassle!

anyways...today i'm going to sign the final paper to make me a whole foods employee :) i start actually working next week. i'm so excited. making the same amount of money...and so much less stress! and then free benefits! i'm sayin!

then i have to go to jewel at 4...to get bitched at for calling off yesterday to go to the dr. and about the 3 days availability i gave them :)
i'm just going to sit there and stare at the wall like theresa does when i try to talk to her.

oook...peace out

so...i went in to talk to "frank" today at whole foods. i filled out the application online and just had to go in and converse with him a little about my schedule. initially they were going to pay me 50 cents less than i am making now. but i really didnt have a problem with it. less stress...is worth it.
after i got home, frank called me and told me that he would be upping my pay to what im making now. so..what do i have to lose?!? same money, free benefits, better discount, better hours, friendly environment, no dress code, somewhat closer to home, and after a raise in a few months, i'll be making more than what i am at jewel after FIVE years.
sounds pretty damn good to me :)
today was exciting. i have to wait until like thursday because they do a background check, but as far as like the 22nd...i'll be spending the majority of my time at whole foods :)
i'm going to keep 2 days at jewel so i can keep my benefits until my FREE ones kick in. and...my manager will probably kill me. but...they've finally pushed me too far. and this is what they get
tonight...party time!

i work at a very large grocery store in chicago. i've been working there for over 5 years. i make pretty good money (for a college student) but honestly...the company doesnt treat their employees all that well. if it werent for the hours that i'm gaurenteed and my health insurance...i wouldnt still be there

well to get to the questions...a man came in yesterday, told me that i was always smiling and happy when he came in even when dealing with aggravated customers (i work at the customer service desk as a supervisor) he gave me his business card, he's a manager at whole foods, and i'm seriously thinking of switching to the competition!

he was telling me about the AWESOME benefits. from what i understand...after putting in 800 hours of service (about 6 months) they PAY for benefits. dental, health, and vision.
start at the same rate i'm making now (after working where i am now for FIVE years) and definitely opportunities to move up.

more plus items -
its the biggest whole foods in the district, downtown.
theres a parking garage - free parking downtown (i'm sayin!!)
i talked to the manager on the phone today for almost 30 minutes and he seems really interested and excited about getting new people

heres the question part -

1. does anyone work at whole foods or know someone that does and have any feedback?? good or bad

2. i know that they do a background check, which is definitely not a problem for me. but...do they drug test? :x

3. if you really read all of this...any input on what i should do??

im alive!!

i know i've been MIA for a while. life has been busy

leja and i moved. our house is amazing. its a duplex, the downstairs has living room, kitchen, bathroom, pantry, 2 bedrooms and an enclosed back porch. by the front door theres a spiral staircase that leads up to the master bedroom and an attic area and enclosed porch. i have to say that i love it a lot. we have window units but we pay for electric only. gas and water is covered. skylights upstairs, and the attic us HUGE. thats going to be like my favorite part once we put a futon up there and a tv and stuff. going to be a chill area.
we're pretty much settled in, we're having a little welcome bbq on sunday.

i had all of last week, and until today off of work. i really really needed it. today i'm going back. and i think im ready. sometimes it sucks but its money, and i need all of that i can get.

this morning i got breakfast in bed :) it was very yummy.

last weekend was pride. my mom and 2 of her friends came up. sat we all went out with them and matt and hung out with a few of my moms friends. then sunday we got awesome seats for the parade. we got a bunch of really cool stuff. last year i was too drunk to remember any of it. this year i split my big mug of vodka and lemonade with willie so wasnt even tipsy. and no one was feeling like going out after so my mom leja and i went and ate shrimp. mmm.

yesterday and today i've been really irratable. i think its because im getting my period. so im sorry to those around me.

aaaanyways...im gonna go shower before i go to work :)

Sometimes I think everyone around me has gone crazy.
Tomorrow we're supposed to start moving things into the new place. Our landlord is being kinda redicilous. The old tenants still have some things in the place. Our landlord tells us that it will be sectioned off into a room. Leja is not ok with that. She doesn't want to move any of our stuff in until they are all out. Understandably, she's stressing out but she's taking it out on me. Moving into this place is supposed to be something fun and new. But she's making it more of a big deal than it is. It kinda hurts because i'm excited about moving and all these new things. My parents are buying us a large housewarming gift, I've told people how cool it is and we're going to have a bbq once we get settled. But now Leja has decided that she's not even going to unpack and leave at her first chance. Glad to know i'm in this alone.

This week I was scheduled to close and open 2 days. Only 5 hours between shifts. Completely against the law and union rules. I asked ebony to switch with me one of the days. She had plans. Understandable. I get barb to do it even though she bitched about it and will probably owe her a favor. Even though its not my fault Theresa screwed up the schedule. Then I found out that ebonys plans...were only to go for a walk! I'm done doing shit for people. I'm not covering shifts anymore. I'm not switching. I'm not going out of my way because no one else seems to care.

And this whole allergy business...has got to go

since friday afternoon when i got off of work...all i have done is packed. and we're still...not done.
i didnt realize how much marilyn stuff she had. i didnt realize the front closet was so big! its like a whole wall 4 feet deep of marilyn!!
i have to open this week at 5 am mon-fri
talk about tired.

i'm a little frustrated today...
it may be that i have my period.

but not totally.

i worked with lisa tonight. as a person - i like lisa, i really do. as a co-worker...not so much. i think that she would have been great in the bookroom...like 5 years after she started working there. she just moved up too fast. she cant keep track or our employees. i cant even go out for lunch because if i left her alone, id probably find our employees all in the breakroom eating cinnamon rolls. yes...i have before. she smokes. i dont think that its fair that smokers get FOUR fifteen minute breaks and the rest of us get two. I'm just going to start walking outside and saying that im "going for a smoke break". and you would think...that in one of these FOUR fifteen minute breaks, shed have time to do any shopping that she needed to do. NO. she waits until the last minute, when we have the most work to do, to do her shopping. leaving me...alone in the bookroom for the half hour that we have the most work to do. NOT to mention her MILLOION phone calls. that she couldnt take on one of her FOUR breaks.

ok. thats not it.

i REALLY REALLY hate money.

and.

i really hate coming home to a messy house.

thats it.

i have had such a busy weekend...i dont even remember all that i did :x

on saturday i opened at 5am, then came home and watched caytlin and lorenzo. we went to game stop and i got lorenzo a game for his awesome report card. then we played at the park for a long time, then i took a nap. i dont remember what i did on sat night. i think just bummed around because i was tired

sunday...i went with leja to her moms house. one of her moms friends worked on my car. i got a tune up. and a price on a new muffler. its gotten pretty bad. it used to be a little whole, and now its way louder and a huge whole. i have to take care of that :)
then i went to work.

yesterday...was my day off and went like every day off should go. leja and i brought caytlin to school, picked up willie and went to the beach. it was a lot of fun. i have a ton of fun pics but i'll post them later because im too lazy to get them out of my e-mail right now. we came home, got the kids and went back to the beach. caytlin had a lot of fun. then...we put the kids to bed and went to hydrate for dollar drinks. i ran into a girl that i had met before, but im not sure if she remembers it. because she had her gay boy come up and talk to me. anyways...we got home and caytlin was in the bed, so we had a slumber party.

today....im going to meet leja for lunch and then workin :)

i love love love warm weather! i cannot wait until its warm enough to sit on the beach in a swimsuit and tan. i got a little sun yesterday, and it was a tease.

aaanyways, life is good. we're getting ready to move. i'm way excited about that. we're going to have a welcome bbq soon after we get settled in.

i had sooooo much to update about...and now i dont remember anything. i hate that

yesterday we signed the lease to our new apartment :D
im really excited about it. i cant wait til summer, drinking on the porch, bbq-ing, infront of the fire pit. in a backyard!
im going to have so much room for all of my clothes, and leja gets a mini-salon area!!
and of course...lots of game systems, cool chairs, and chilling room up in the attic.

it also means...im going to have to work like a bitch, even more than i already do.
i opened twice this week and it went really well, besides not being able to open the bottom part of the safe yesterday morning. it was 5am and i got frustrated and gave up. i would also like to complain about the loud ass people on the train yesterday morning at 3am. usually, its just a buch of people sleeping when i get on, but it was really loud.

tomorrow...im going to get my car fixed. hopefully it works. tony replaced the water pump and thermostat, so he thinks theres a small blockage, so i have to get a radiator flush. fucking car is going to be the death of me.

my lovely manager is letting me start at 6 tonight so leja can drive me :)

my mom and scott came over for easter. i invited them but really didnt think that they would show up...and they did. the place is kinda a mess with all the boxes and stuff.

i cannot wait til my income tax comes...so i can book plain tickets to cali!! leja had kinda a funny idea that we would just go, and wing it with backpacks just for the weekend, to save money. but...i think im going to try to get someone i know to share a hotel room with us, so we can go for longer.

on sat im going to the baton with my mom, leja, and one of my moms friends for her birthday, then to a bar or something. im excited because its my only day off, and not so excited because it looks like its going to be shitty out :(

the easter bunny, bought me these REALLY cute pair of shorts from abercrombie kids. they're blue and green plaid (my fav colors) :)
and a necklace, bracelet, and shirt.

aaaanyways, its freezing and im going to lay down!!

It is way too early and some crazies are on the train.
I haven't updated in a while...so here's the scoop- Leja and I are moving. They are remodeling the building we're living in now so we have to leave. But it's a good thing too because we definitely need more room.
We had been searching...and yesterday we got the apartment we wanted. My dream house...has always included an unfinished woody looking attic. And that's what we got! It's a duplex just a few blocks from where we are now. We have one apt below us and they're younger with kids. On the first floor, is the living room when you walk in and a circular staircase. 2 bedrooms on the left side of the hall, bathroom on the right then kitchen in back. There's an inclosed porch we'll be using for the kitchen table. There is another back staircase off of the porch that leads up to like another enclosed porch/little room, then there's HUGE attic space, with tons of room to hang clothes. Then if you keep walking towards the front is the master bedroom which is also huge and the circular staircase leading down to living room.it also has a back yard, wooden porch, grill, fire pit, total bbq yard.
:) we found out that we got it yesterday.Leja and I are way excited. So are lorenzo and caytlin to have their own rooms.
So...we'll most likely be moving in may first.
Other than that. Same stuff. Working like a maniac. Story of my life.
I'm pretty sure I'm changing my major...and school. I'm going to Columbia not sure if I'm going to major in business or graphic design and computer programming. I was going to finish nursing first because I only have about a year and a half left...but I just can't keep going to classes that aren't that interesting to me.
This weekend I'm going to this hair show with Leja and some of her friends. I don't even care what I'm doing the fact that I have the whole weekend off...or just 2 days off is amazing and I'm sure I'll have a lot of fun.
I have a cold and it kinda sucks. So does starting this early. For some reason it didn't feel this bad when I worked at caribou. Maybe it's because I'm just locked in a room by myself counting a whole bunch of shit now. And there's no coffee involved!
Ok...I've had enough typing on these little phone buttons.

:) :) what a beautiful day :) :)

leja and i woke up, watched some oprah, then we took caytlin on our walk with us. theres all of these little chinese stores on halsted and they have cheap stuff so we did a little easter basket shopping.
then we got ICED coffee (yes, i had to get iced because i havent all winter and now that its warm im going to be addicted to iced lattes again)
dropped cayt off at school, then came home
and i've been updating my ipod since. i get in these funks where i dont download anything new or dont update it, so today i had to download like 50 songs ive been meaning to
on the way to work...im going to be JAMMING

theres nothing like sitting in some basketball shorts, eating a maxwell polish, with the windows open :)...listening to some awesome music

So...I finally got my new phone :) Kyle is way jealous that she doesn't have a blackberry pearl so she feels the need to make fun of me
I went to eat with mom and Scott it was yummy. The girl served me beer even though I didn't have my I'd which is crazy because I look like a preteen boy
Anyways...just wanted to see if this worked

so i think i pulled a muscle in bed last night, and no....it was nothing sexual.
i went to lay down, and leja jumped up because she saw the blanket and it looked like a little head out of the corner of her eye
so a little bit of laughing later, my phone vibrates on the table and it was loud enough to scare the both of us, twisting my leg in all sorts of the opposite direction from my body
so long story short...my leg hurts like a bitch

in bad news vs good news - my phone broke (as mentioned a few weeks ago) i had been using my sidekick, but it absolutely sucks and i dont get service anywhere
so my mom went last night to get us new phones. i wanted the blackberry pearl. after her saying for a week that it was too expensive...she ends up getting one too. her figuring out how to use it...should be interesting

im going out there on sat to pick it up, and possibly visit my grams. not only is caytlin going to be mad that i went without her, leja was kinda jealous that i was going. 
i think my mom and leja get along a little too well, especially when wine is involved

i get a haircut tonight :)
its so long and out of control i cant stand it.. anyone that knows me knows that when im having a bad hair day...my whole day is also bad.

im closing with ebony tonight. which is awesome. the last time we closed together she ended up coming over for mudslides and stayed until 2am.
i dont think thats going to happen tonight tho.

aaaanyways....the shower is calling